There are parameter people and then there are no-parameter people.
I fancy myself in the latter group.
Of course there are always parameters.
But I enjoy the fantasy of kicking at them, storming them, even just pushing them out a little to thwart the cops.
Brian seems to want some parameters here in blogland. How come?
By the way I’m not calling him a cop. I really dig Brian. But he does seem interested in constraints. His assertion, not long ago, for example, that he wanted to see more visceral poems that were under a page long. Why under a page?, I asked him. It’s a good constraint, he said.
Books demand limits, Barry wrote. Yes, and they push them too.
Brian lauds blogs as being laboratories for what will later be more polished work.
For me, I just want more more more pondwater.
I might even say it’s ALL ABOUT pondwater. As opposed to “polish.”
I don’t seem to have the same set of problems (for example problems with blogs) as some of the other bloggers do. I have a different set of problems, of course, like the fear that I might actually be a problem. That fear is of no real consequence except for the agon that infiltrates my work. I might say I’m attached to that fear and that agon as a kind of stimulus.
I don’t have any problem, for example, with the idea of this being my lawn. Or my front yard. If it means I can actually have a front yard! My coop does have a side garden where longlong ago when it was actually summer I grew basil, but that’s a far cry from a front yard.
I remember a yard in San Francisco – where was it – Diamond Heights? That was filled with the most extraordinary variety of succulents I have ever seen. They formed a mosaic of color and shape and texture – gray, bulbous, deep maroon, spiky, low, trailing, lime-green – all on the slope in front of a beautiful San Francisco house.
There are other front yards I have seen, both on the east and west coasts, filled with tchotchkes – little dolls, stuffed animals, bits of pottery. Yards as labors of folk art. In my neighborhood in Brooklyn, as Ellen Zweig put it, the front yards are like installations: Blue-clad Virgin Marys in hand-built alcoves, sometimes made of stucco, sometimes enclosed in glass.
I like a yard.
I like notes under doors. Or better yet notes under pillows.
The invisible description of this blog is “a kind of pillow book of musings.” That’s all. Not all things for all people. Not trying to build a canon or a coterie or a reputation or take the whole fucking crazy out of control water buffalo of a world by its horns, look it in the eye and somehow hypnotize it into curbing its aggression. I just can’t do that.
Not to fetishize the beauty of particulars – but I guess I feel… if I love … the details of life… enough… I am moved to go on… even with the ridiculous practice… of writing poems.…