it feels weird to be both bitter and blissful at the same time…
kind of… vertiginous…
the chemical dialectic
I put lemon in my eyes?
My main reason for choosing to write this review is that now, the absence of a scent is bothering me. Although it is ‘unscented’, I smell something, and it isn’t pleasant! To be perfectly honest, it smells like worms. It just reminds me of those rainy days, walking to school when there were lots of worms on the sidewalk. It smells like wet, rainy weather worms.
Even after my third wife went cold, i kissed her.
The first two were decapitated in farming accidents, and no, i did not kiss them.
Yeah, is death suppose to make them gross instantaneously?
What did I know of worms and skincare?
Third day off Effexor.
it’s as if my head were an old band-aid can full of dried grasshoppers then shaken
or like there are these alligators made of cardboard who chomp their jaws repeatedly in a way that stops time
it is rather like time stops for a second, or like the brain is kind of throbbing in that transition from past into present
it’s percussive, sort of electric, shuddery
it’s a kind of gap in “normalcy”
often in the literature it’s called a shock or a zap or a jolt… I don’t quite experience that…it’s more like, as it’s sometimes often called… shivers
I can’t see myself when it happens, but I wonder whether something weird isn’t also happening with my eyes… if they are rolling back slightly, because I have that feeling
it’s a little like the scratching a dj does
as I said sometimes I have to just stop if I am walking or kind of steady myself
it isn’t serious, doesn’t feel dire… but it feels weird, especially in the heat
a whispery sound like shook shook shook
and a tension in my skull and temples
if I move my head to the side
or my eyes to the side
from the FDA medical products reporting program, the list of withdrawal symptoms from effexor include:
agitation, anorexia, anxiety, confusion, coordination impaired, diarrhea, dizziness, dry mouth, dysphoric mood, fasciculation, fatigue, headaches, hypomania, insomnia, nausea, nervousness, nightmares, sensory disturbances (including shock-like electrical sensations), somnolence, sweating, tremor, vertigo, and vomiting.
star pasta and black night carrot
This were my responses to someone who posted the following quote on Google+, which is better than facebook, by the way.
“We believe there are times when you are empty and times when you are full. When you’re full to overflowing, you write poems until you’re empty, then you wait around while you get filled up again.”
– Kim Addonizio and Dorianne Laux, The Poet’s Companion
Nada Gordon – This is absolutely ridiculous and annoying. When you feel this way, just steal something.
Nada Gordon – I don’t think you could pay me to read that book!
Nada Gordon – The whole notion of “inspiration” posits a bourgeois Privileged Self with a Special Inside. To me it’s dopey and cloying. We make things out of enthusiasm, excitement, ambition, or some other sort of motivation, but “inspiration” is nonsense, as is the idea of “fullness” or emptiness,” as if we weren’t always permeable and therefore neither full nor empty. Besides, we didn’t make language, it moves through us, it came from outside to begin with, so the idea of being “empty” is just… fallacious. Just think about it, people! Don’t rely on worshoppy drivel-marketing for your consolation or guidelines. “The poet’s companion” MY ASS! If you want to make something, just f***ing assemble it. Addonizio and Laux are symptomatic of the ingrained simpering wrongthinking of “creative writers” who think their precious little epiphanies are Of Great Import. Angst anyway is not “emptiness” and neither is “joy.” Emotion may imbue/ exude from/ project onto a poem, or not, but it doesn’t make a poem. Will makes a poem. Selection and combination make poems, not emotions. I find the book, the post, the comments, the whole mindset utterly annoying. We can’t BUT “steal another person’s words” unless we use a zaum language no one else can understand. If you don’t know what zaum is, look it up instead of reading Addonizio and Laux.