Of course, I’ve read the biological explanations for why we crave what is the worst for us.

Nonetheless, I find it very disappointing.

And in my case, at certain times more than others, those cravings are overweaning — notably, for vermicelli. Also, copious amounts of ice cream.

I actually like the things that are supposed to be good for me (kale, tofu, avocado, carrots, quinoa, etc.) quite a lot (I know, there’s now some kind of controversy about tofu. I just find it hard to believe the arguments against it given the Japanese predilection for it, and their long history of eating it happily and healthily. I especially love it with Lee Kum Kee black bean & garlic sauce — tho I wonder if the MSG might not cancel out any health benefits).

But the bad things… sometimes… are like a hydra!

Overleaning…

I think there is a connection between eating the wrong foods knowingly and a deep sense (however wrongheaded) of a lack of political & personal agency. Is it too much to say that eating wrongly is an a- or anti-political act?

(Thinking, suddenly, of eating disorders.)

The incredible sudden gratification of certain foods. How one is completely absorbed in them. I know a diabetic who will wait at the Krispy Kreme factory for the freshest donuts — his description of them profoundly poetic… he brings others there to try to convert them, even! And it is true, once they have tasted that melting sugar, the lardy smoosh of the donut meat as it dissolves on the tongue, and smelled that heady smell, they are surely doomed…